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‘I was 45, divorced, childless. The single, desperate, drunk girl at the bar. My biological clock was DEAFENING.’: Woman battles depression, addiction for decades, now ‘healthy’ and ‘loving life’

“I stumbled through my 30s drunk, suicidal, barely eating, and pill-popping. My shopping list of life didn’t have ONE tick on it. I felt incredible pressure to ‘do’ life in the right order, by the right age. School, college, career, man, marry, house, kids and then live happily ever after. Yet, I didn’t have any of it. I clung to the only thing I had going for me, my skinny body and long hair! Now, smack on a new ‘label’ of mentally ill. Proof I was indeed broken and had to correct what was ‘wrong’ with me.”

‘My miscarriage crushed me. I screamed and cried in the nursery closet, clenching my son’s wubby so hard my palms bled. I was inconsolable.’

“Now you’re left exhausted, thinking what the hell did we just do? Am I an imposter because I failed? I flipped my mindset. It felt good to dive into something again, which started with ripping up all the carpet in the upstairs of our house. There was no sense in avoiding a room meant for a nursery when I could change it into a usable space.”

‘When will we hear the patter of tiny feet? ‘You don’t want to be OLD parents, do you?’: Family adopts 2 children after struggling for years with infertility

“The phone call that changed our life. It was 8 p.m. on a Wednesday when the phone rang. It was our social worker. ‘How would you like to come and meet a baby boy? He’s almost 6 weeks old.’ My scream must have deafened her. We’d been waiting to adopt a child for two years and before that had spent five long, desperate years of infertility tests and treatments to try for one of our own.”

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