pregnancy loss

‘I’m so sorry,’ she said. My body had absorbed one of my twins. My womb was a temporary coffin.’: Mom loses twin son in harrowing pregnancy, says she’ll ‘always have a place for him’ in her heart

“Over the next 4 months, I was scanned every 2 weeks. I had to slowly watch my son break down. First, his little eyes, nose, and beautiful lips became harder to see. Then his tiny fingers and toes started to fuse together. Finally, it got to the point where he lost all of his features. It was torture. I just wanted the day to come so I could get him out and grieve. But I also didn’t want to give birth because I knew once he was out, he was gone forever.”

‘I picked up a needle and got loaded before I got married. I thought I could do it once. I was wrong.’: Man thought he ‘deserved a treat’ on his wedding day, wife has miscarriage while he waits for treatment

“After 5 days of being in detox, I called my wife. I told her how excited I was to be clean and live a good life with her. After I was done talking, she told me she didn’t want to see me again, and I wasn’t allowed to see her daughter again, and hung up. I was so hurt.”

‘You promise you’ll hang a wind chime for my son?’ I felt each syllable. His shaky jaw dropped against my shoulder.’: Nurse hangs wind chimes to honor each ‘angel baby’ she delivers

“For a year, it’s been my greatest honor to litter chimes among tree leaves where hummingbirds fly. You and your husband know this. Shared from one of the private corridors of my heart. Spilled out of my trembling mouth during one of our many discussions of how Nurses behave at home. How we process bad outcomes. How we offload shifts like the very one I was in the middle of. Dead babies are not supposed to happen to us, but here you are. A nurse. One of us. Your son was my 21st wind chime.”

‘It’s just cells. Don’t beat yourself up over it.’ That was it. I was sent on my merry way to mourn the loss of my child.’: Woman delivers rainbow baby after losing 7 children

“I remember crawling to the bathroom feeling like a knife was running its way from my navel down, unbeknownst to me that I was even pregnant. I remember sitting there thinking, ‘I’m going to be one of those people on that TV show ‘I Didn’t Know I Was Pregnant’. Then, I felt the release of my dead baby. The ER doctor told me, ‘Oh, use a heating pad for any pain.’ That’s it. No follow up, no resources available, just use a heating pad.”

‘Mama, it’s beautiful! Look at all the flowers.’ I felt sick to my stomach. There is nothing normal about cemetery shopping for your baby.’: Mom tragically recounts losing daughter during pregnancy

“It was obvious that her condition was worsening. I found myself awake, begging God to let me sleep. The next day I had yet another doctor’s appointment. This time I met my sister in the parking lot of the hospital, and we walked nervously in together. I think both of us were fighting back tears. The nurse searched with the doppler to find Gracia’s heartbeat and at one point my eyes met my sister’s when we thought we heard a heartbeat, but we didn’t.”

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